Best Lossdesire Poems
It isn’t that I went looking for your approval
I just thought I had it
Wrapped like a scarf around my neck
I was safe from the biting cold
That came through the piercing eyes
Of those still seeking what I was comfortable in having
Suddenly, a torrent wind blew off my scarf
And the gale left welts around my neck
To be viewed by all the nay-sayers
I was them, and they were me
Except, I was naked, standing alone
With the guilt of all my failure
Can dignity ever be worn by one so exposed
There are images that can never be erased
Though they take their place in the fires of the mind
The shadows linger forever
Like the smell of smoke from a wood stove
Tainting every scent that tries to emerge
It’s excruciating to remain with the knowledge
To run away is yellow and weak
The flesh melts while the spirit stands erect
Disappointed desire is comparable to a staff infection
It can be life threatening, extremely messy
Eating away at the flesh that’s in its path
I deeply desire to write a nice ending
To this painful experience, but I ‘m in it
And all I can see is the here and now
My resilient fortitude pushes me onward
To look outside of my perceptions
And tear down the boxes I’ve put around myself and others
So, one, two, three, four,…three, four
Written by Trudy Schrader on 1-18-07 after a horrible evaluation from a trusted friend.