Your Role

I was such an awful kid, I'm sorry for everything that I did. I pushed everyone away And I'm still doing it, to this day. I blame you for making me this way. Maybe things would be different if you had chosen to stay. But you didn't and it broke my heart. You left and it tore me apart. You're the reason I'm afraid of rejection, Too scared to jump in for fear of deception. Always waiting for the bad to come, Expecting happiness but there never is some. You have made me doubtful and insecure, I want to love but there is no cure. The damage you have done is way too great, All I can do is await my fate. I'm going to die alone and sad, Missing the love I never had. Thinking of you always gets me so mad, Because this isn't the role intended for a dad.