You Hurt My Feelings

Father, you hurt my feelings It looks as if you don’t care that I’m alone Melodic, hopeful bird sings, So I listen and feel at home, all on my own The tune of tranquility will drain away the rain of pain Until then, I will be the bitter clouds, smothered with hostility and rage; I keep concealed this one grudge inside Maybe I will replace it with cheer and fear the Lord again Once again, you don’t apologize with your arrogance and ignorance alike – sorry about that, that was quite snide I know I acted like a jerk You guys assume I’m a reckless man whore Still, repentance is at work Your goodbyes is another slammed door You hurt me to the core…at least God doesn’t ignore me the way you do alright You don’t care hardly ever…whatever, I might as well have guilt overflow inside me….I sin, so get over it – this is my war to endure No, not anymore – what are you waiting for? You think you always do what’s right Apologize and stop laughing about your ridiculous, corny jokes – you are a deceiving cure that has its sole purpose to simply injure You hurt my feelings You don’t mind my hurt one bit – laugh away your worries as you are able – you forgot that I’m human deliberately God gives me His healings Understand that I can’t help being emotionally instable…screw that bipolar label, for it doesn’t define me completely I smile away my sorrow I walk the extra mile…you are careless of my struggles in this difficult trial Yesterday and tomorrow I will forgive you, but it will take a while….His forgiveness isn’t out of style Well, father, I’m sorry I’m bisexual You played me the senseless fool You’re a horrible thief of my dreams… You burned me out entirely by the seams My passion and sex drive was due to my lonely, sad state I’m letting go of remorse and yet, can’t get over your hate I smirk away the tears that build up in my blue eyes Believe me, I can see through your over-a-thousand lies I have learned not to trust people with my personal business I have learned that I need to seek happiness instead of this distress It's none of your business about my sex life…marriage ain’t on my mind I can have friends with benefits all I want when I want – I’m sick of being kind Don’t you step all over me as if I’m your front porch's mat A lot of individuals tell me that I’m a perfect weight, but I feel fat I’m like roadkill in the streets, rotting with hatred and grief I’m waiting patiently for His Holy Spirit to give me radiant relief I was furious and hopeless You didn’t give seven s about me apparently So long for making progress I don’t have a sense of humor right now frankly It’s Saturday afternoon at its prime The sun is still shining and the traffic In my mind accumulate overtime Well, good vibes and positivity will do the trick Dad, I'm sorry I got so mad Dad, I don't mean to be sad Autumn's here and I'm glad Left with the lamentable past I eish I never truly had...I'm an insecure lad Yes, my past deciisions make me look awfully bad...oh yeah, not just a tad Hope and faith will see me through and my time spent with you will be rad Yes, I remember you hurt my feelings...sorry I committed selfish crimes Do I forgive you? Maybe I will let go and let live, despite the strife I have got hurt feelings more than a few times...my worth is a trillion dimes I need to start believing in You and set my mind on Your way of life I squandered my significant time time and time again Sometimes, I want to hide in my cold, heartless den I have poor grammar, but so what? I'm in a vexing rut At least I go by my gut - my actions were of a senseless **** Change is a challenging chore Lord, I love You to the deepest layer of my heart Your Word is what I still adore He hurt my feelings - dad, don't tear me all apart I'm so lucky that God is a merciful Father of divine light He brings accord in my life and I'm grateful all the more Give me a reason to move on with my remaining might Discard of the discord in this world of woe and with these wings of flight, I will soar Soar with me in harmony, oh Lord of Accord...what am I looking forward to? What am I heading toward? Am I on the right track? My one and only Father is so much adored I feel as empty as a popcorn container, devoured by children of all ages...fill me up with the popcorn of passion and productivity all over again and then, give me liberty and deprive me of captivity - I'm lost, Lord, so tell me where I've been... Oh Lord of abundant life, You protect me with a shield and a sword emotionally...making me feel way less bored and cleaning out my toxic emotions that I always seem to hoard Hey, at least I'm not acting like a complainer - my strength and confidence in You is far greater than the physical potentials and stamina of a million men I am almost-completely numb inside my brain You never showed you cared about me emotionally Maybe I'm still getting over being driven insane God's Fruit and character will be my healing remedy!