Words Mean So Little

I sometimes get lost in the words I say to you; What I feel in my heart is too difficult to sort through. You often try to believe that you understand what I mean; Truth of it all is, my words are not what they seem. When I say that I love you and although that is right; Alone in my bed, is how I would be every night. It really means that if I lost you, I would break down and cry; The pain of you being gone, would be too much to hide. I know that I always say "I miss us spending time together." Hoping you realize I want to have you forever. When I say I give up, there is nothing left to mend; In the back of my mind, I never want this to end. When you say hurtful things, that are way out of line; I don't say what I mean, I just tell you I'm fine. I occasionally say to you that our love is not meant to be; Praying to God that when I do, you see right through me. When you are down on one knee, asking me to be your wife; Knowing this is what I have wanted from you, since you walked into my life. And although I may laugh and tell you that your proposal wasn't the best; Remember the kiss I give you, will only be me saying that I definitely mean yes. Because baby when I say that I would die if you ever walked away; I really do mean that without you, my heart stops beating for another day.