Wondering Buddha

Wondering how do I know when to take refuge who will tell me when it is time to take refuge in the sangha, the dharma, the buddha... will I know the sign when the rainbows cross the ocean will I know the sign when the rainbows cross the sea will I know the sign when my spirit flies with freedom will I know the sign when I come home to me. Wondering how will I determine whether enlightenment has landed like a butterfly on me all soft and gentle and as colourful as can be Wondering is this the right path I really want to take to commit myself from now until I die to life by the precepts and the dharma or am I telling myself a lie?