Wondering

I wonder why Im hated I ask what did I do? But then I remember I hate myself too, I think about relationships and wonder why I try I could disappear and some wouldnt blink an eye, I think about my parents wishing we were close in some way I think about it all the time every single day, I wonder why I exist Im clearly a mistake Stuff is getting to me not sure what more I can take, I wonder why Im not happy or if Ill ever be Im often told Im worthless and Im starting to agree