Wondered Thoughts

Starving for truth and what lies beyond me, Heavy blockages of electricity run through my body, Static feelings numb my mind, Too much to bear, Just want to wake up and find, The answers, To life, how to battle fears, Keep seeing one day wont be nothing left, Things I have done, Things I've said, Heartaches I've received, Does it all matter? Out of all that has happened, Just want to know one thing, Have I succeeded? Time that passes each day, Waiting, and being patient, Was it for nothing? Dying to know, Thinking my time is up, Should I keep going? Looking for the answers, I may never know, This battlefield will only grow stronger, The fake smiles fades, No more laughter, Will it come a day, I won't ever be afraid? Waking up back in reality, Leaves me drained Now I need to rest.