Wonder and Realization

I wonder why. not why me or why not but why now why now has the world turned it's back on me why now has it hidden its face from me at this hour i've come to realize its not it thats turned its back on me but i thats turned away in its time of need now that i am needy why should it help why should it show its face no true reason why just yet but as long as i fight it will see i'm worth it right? it will push me down but only to bring me back up again i will finally be ALIVE