Wonder

I wonder what it would feel like to have a real dad? Then I look and see my brothers and grandpa and know I’m better off. I wonder what it would feel like to have a true friend? Then I turn to my left and right and say I love my dipset family. I wonder about a lot of things. But I don’t wonder about who or where I stand. I wonder how it would feel to be in true love? Then I get a kiss on my forehead and realize I already know. I wonder when I will be a mother? So I flash back and realize I been raising kids all along. I can wonder about a lot of things I want in life. But what I don’t want is to replace who I am. I wonder what it would be like to have a normal family? While I pull them apart, I understand I love them for who they are. I wonder what it would be like if I wasn’t so determined? I step in front of the mirror and smile, and say “you’ll never know”. The things I wonder could stop you in your tracks and cause change. But im glad that through all the thoughts im still me. I wonder why I care so much? As I turn around, I see the eyes of those who care back.