Why Lord, Why Me?

Lord, so many times, “I ask You why?” Why have You chosen me? What am I to do Lord? Why can I not be like someone else? Like the woman in the church, Strong in faith, full of character, Glows with the light of Your love, Always smiling, always giving. Why can I not be like the rich man? Having a home of my own, Wealth enough as not to worry, To provide for my children the things they deserve. Why can I not be like the lady at the shop? Physically beautiful, energetic and graceful, No worries about weight issues, No health issues due to weight. Why can I not have that dream family? A family filled with love, always sharing, Spiritually bound with one another, Well educated and trouble free. Lord, these things I continually wish for, I’ve failed You Lord; I do not want to seem selfish, Nor do I want to feel ungrateful. But Lord, I ask you why? Why have you chosen me? To live the life you’ve presented to me, This life I feel I cannot live any more. Day by day, every moment, My life filled with constant struggles, The pain and suffering never ending, A constant battle, never winning, Climbing to reach You, always falling, Why Lord, why me? I am weak and bruised Lord, My heart is weary, My body grows more tired each day. I cry with silent tears as to hide my sorrows. If this is what I must go through, Then please help me to understand why. Please guide me, Lord, show me Your light, Help me find my way. Build my character and give me faith. Help me Lord, to live this life, This life You have chosen for me. ~AMEN~