Why Do I?

Why do I feel so alone? Why do I cry, in these long nights? Why do I love, where I can not get love back? Why do I trust, who can not trust me back? Why do I have to kill myself inside? Why do I Hate, hate even myself? These feelings the most painful inside, and no one see's them. The Heart ache I give myself, to love, one who doesn't love me back. The Pain I deal to myself, is taring me apart. My own blood, I feel is against me. Everyone else follows him. I plea but all he says, that I'm doing it all wrong. I try so hard, but yet feel nothing was gained. I want to hope, but feel I will only get crushed. Want to tell her, but don't want to fully lose her. Guess there's no reason anymore, to tell her if nothing is going to respond. My greatest Strength, is my greatest weakness. I feel so lost, I feel so afraid. My Heart is beating its last beats, before it fades away.