Why Did You Hurt Me

( WHY DID YOU HURT ME ) All these years i thought you loved me, my heart is torn in pieces. Just remembering what happened, my heartbeat increases. You touched me in places I didnt like, i thought that it was normal. You told me to keep it between us, that everything was pretty formal. Growing up wasnt easy, I did things i didnt like. You always were very strict, when i did wrong you would strike. I had brusies on my body, you said it would make me tough. You always kissed me on the lips, and to me you made it rough. You said that daddy`s did this, and i believed your every word. Screaming and moaning every day, is all i ever heard. Drinking made you meaner, I always tried to hide. I could never tell when good was good, cause you always lied. Whenever you got lonely, you told mom she had to leave. You would lock me in the bedroom, and wipe my tears with my sleeve. You always turned the lights out, and if i moved you got pissed. No matter what i did or say, you would make sure i wouldnt resist. You told me i was worthless, and that you wished that i was dead. You always hit me so damn hard, that was body was always red. I cried almost every day, you made me feel like ****. I never will forget you, not one single bit. Now im older and wiser and i want you to read this letter. You were never ever a dad to me, and now my life is better. A daddy dont abuse their kids, my heart is finally free. Im just wondering why you did this, and why did you hurt me.