Why Can'T I See

Why cant i see what hes done to me? torn me completely.. Always says things so disrespectfully. Takes me then leaves me, and only mentions love occasionally. Says he cant make it because of work, only to lurk for other girls. I thought he was the greatest person in the world, until there came these last words, " I'm sorry i cheated i really am, but i decided i the only way i can be a man is to leave you, since I'm becoming a dad." Denial leaved me shook for years, but why can't i see what he's done to me even though I'm still shedding tears..