-who I Am Now-

fathomless depth of where i long to be, 
freefalling into a whisper of a moment-
pales in comparison to what once was,
fearing not the way i chose to breathe

lost in the abyss no one warned me about, 
flabbergasted without reprieve as the
laughter in fields fade into willows weeping-
i am left on the horizon awaiting the phoenix;
may i rise from the ash of a tormented youth
and free myself from the angst of tomorrow

“i need tears to nourish my heart’s desire,
crave pain when nothing seems right-
for there is no need to fight the light, 
i just go towards the burning ember fire”

releasing who i once was,
                 comprehending who i am now



5.4.20
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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Mcintosh Avatar
June 1, 2020 at 9:43 AM
Love this, Lu Loo. I love you too and miss you. God bless you dear lady.
One Avatar
May 11, 2020 at 2:21 PM
Many people will relate to this one... Deeply emotive
Rose  Avatar
May 9, 2020 at 2:45 PM
Its a blessed day when we finally arrive at our truest self and feel understood by us, well written Lu, xo
Ashley Avatar
May 7, 2020 at 9:36 PM
Lu, your poem of personal transformation is expressed with depth, intensity and emotions lavished so beautifully. Brilliant poetry, your amazing artistry shines! Congratulations on your wonderful win. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Sergi Avatar
May 6, 2020 at 4:29 PM
Hi Lu: I absolutely loved this precious poem! Keep writing and I hope you are not fighting the quarantine.
Barden Avatar
May 5, 2020 at 10:54 PM
Happy Cinco de Mayo and sincere congratulations for your win in Brian's contest, Lu - keep up the great work! I hope you are staying safe and sound, My Friend - blessings! :o) <3
Agustin Avatar
May 4, 2020 at 6:22 PM
Thanks for sharing this. It's my prayer that the Lord will continually nourish your heart's desire as He promised. God bless you.
Ibeh Avatar
May 4, 2020 at 4:57 PM
Absolutely beautiful, Lu Loo:-) Keep writing and visiting, my friend!
Rodrigues Avatar
May 4, 2020 at 2:24 PM
A wonderful description! Fiction perhaps but don’t those last two lines speak of us all over time. Hugs my sweet friend!
Watt Avatar
May 4, 2020 at 11:40 AM
Laura, it was so nice to see this today - I do so enjoy reading your poetry and your unique style and perspective. This was a splendid write of the continuing transformation of self, especially the poignant final two lines. Glad you're here. Hugs ~ John
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