Who I Am
I’m lost within myself
There’s nothing I can see
There’s nothing inside that reminds me
of all I strived to be
I question my religion
I bathe in indecision
I’m stuck in this collision
of who I am and who I want to be
I’m a beast unto myself
An animal trapped inside his cage
There’s a piece of me
that could bring peace to me
but I’m keeping it at bay
Day in and day out
The person I always thought I’d be
begs me for his freedom
I hear me scream
I hear me shout
I here me fight for my desired existence
My bleeding heart is drowning me
from the inside out
as I let the outside in
I betray myself
I’m beside myself
I’m stuck here inside myself
suffocating in my own skin
burning in my own sin
wishing for something I’ve never been
let me out
don’t keep me in
I can’t escape from me
I’m blinding myself
so I can’t see
the rotting corpse of who I want to be
My past is there
My present’s here
My future is what I can’t achieve
I can’t believe I ever let this happen to me
I’m growing more lost
frantically searching for what I could be
trying to save what used to be me
my hope is fading
am I worth saving?
Is there any hope for me?
Fighting for my freedom
to save myself from me
fighting for my right to breathe inside myself
fighting for the hope of escaping from myself
I could just give up
like I did a long time ago
but I could never be a better person though
should I carry on?
I can’t take this anymore
I’m fighting for who I was before
but I keep closing that door on myself
as I sit here and wonder
how hard will it be
to save what used to be me?
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