Who Do I Blame?
Love the way you live
Explanation for why I hurt with so much pain
I cant explain
Who do I blame
Do I blame a mother that couldn't wake up some days
Who only seen her own pain
Do I blame a father who walked out as if shamed
Do I blame a God with a bigger picture that I yet could not conceive
What do I believe
Do I blame myself
Did I do something wrong in a past life that is the cause for all this wrong
Is this the normal life of a poor little biracial girl
They say the eyes are the window to a person's soul
So what do they read when the windows are covered by rain
How can you see the world how its meant to be seen
When all you've ever seen was pain
How can I explain
How can I tell you that everything is fine
When I myself believe it to be other wise
Dont look to me for inspiration
When I have no hope in the human race
I see war
Not only in the world
But from within myself
How can I tell you to smile
When I myself have ran out
How can I tell you not to cry
When I cry myself to sleep at night
How can I say things will get better
When I've seen worse
How can I convince you that life is worth living
When everyone around me is dying
How can I tell you don't hate a rapist
When I myself have been raped
How can I tell you to forgive a murderer
When I've had a love murdered
How can I tell you to not judge a drug addict
When I myself have contributed to my own peoples happit
How can I honestly say to move on with you're life
When for years I've held on for dear life
How can I stand in front of God
And explain why I've lived the way I've lived
How can I not judge him
When he's set back and watched my suffering
Who do I blame
Me or Him?
Copyright © Erikah Rae | Year Posted 2006
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