Who Am I

What do I look like to you? How many times have you seen me? Yet you haven't seen it yet? Don't you see the monster I truly am? Often I wish to release you... You are worth so much more than this... Open your heart? Open your mind. Understand that you deserve control Think about how I sound to you Read between the lines Underneath my parasol everything stands Softly, I speak to comfort you: Take my word as law, and be happy Master of mind heart and soul Everything I need, I want, I take So much control, so why can't I do it? Offer an answer, an explanation as to why Maybe...I'm not in control of this Us? Can't you see I'm under a terrible spell? Help me... ? As you listen...tell me how I feel to you Restore my faith in myself and in love Everything and anything I have lies here Nothing you can do will change the truth Tell me what it all means... Teach me how to keep this feeling Help the pain go away I surrender to you, you are in control Never in my life had anyone owned me Grab my hand, take me somewhere new Show me how you do it... Save my life once more Take away my strongest advantage I have never been so exhilarated Let me experience a joy only you can give Let me forget my future Give me nothing except for what you do Open my mind to a new ambiguity I don't want to know what happens next No future in which I know the answer God himself will be lost in a new world Make me understand what its like You can't... Where can I go to find peace from this? After all, nothing that isn't destined fails You have complete control ? 04/19/2018