Anne P. Murray Poet Rhyme

Where Can I Hide

I wrote this poem for my daughter who struggled for years with addictions. 
She has been sober for 3 years now...living her life... one day at a time.

This is for all those who suffer with addictions. 
May you be blessed and walk in peace, love and light..
Anne
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WHERE CAN I HIDE


Where do I go- where can I hide?
   There’s so much fear and pain inside
The secrets I keep- they’re killing my soul
   I truly can’t allow anyone to know
 I can’t allow anyone to see
   Can’t allow myself to be me

The chance of betrayal causes so much fear
   I’m afraid to allow anyone to near
So, where can I go
   How much longer can I hide?
If I confess my secrets…
   Will I be judged and tried?

I have so much guilt
   My heart’s full of pain
There’s so much to lose…
   Yet so much to gain 

Lord where do I go
   How much longer can I hide?
There is so much shame…
   So many times I’ve tried 

It’s tough on my spirit
   It’s so hard on my pride
I’m so tired of acting
   I’m so tired of my lies

I’ve found rejection- by myself and others
   I’ve been lost and betrayed
My heart is so weary
   My nerves are so frayed 

                     NO…
            I will fight this war
            I’ll fight to be free
            I’ll never give up…
                    Because...
            This addiction is not me!

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Andrea Dietrich August 3, 2012 at 8:39 PM GREAT poem on the problem. I sure hope she can turn her life around completely and not ever have this come back to her. I just had to click on your name because its' the same as a famous singer I remember from long ago! I like your Avatar too.

Justin Bordner August 3, 2012 at 6:49 PM Thank you for sharing this exquisite struggle Anne - the prize of this pain has been sweet resolve! J.A.B.

Lee Ramage July 29, 2012 at 12:02 AM Wow, this is so moving. Well done. Having counselled addictions, I truly understand. Well done and so touching, Lee Anne P. Murray July 29, 2012 at 11:45 AM Thank you Lee for R & R this poem. Many Blessings to you my friend Anne