When Was....

When was the last time you caught yourself reaching out into thin air? Coming home with news to share... only to realize, no ones there. Rolling over in bed craving the warmth of your lovers embrace. Opening your eye's hoping to see that smile on his perfect face. You truly felt your breath catch at the sound of the phone? The last time you were in a room full of people and had that feeling of being alone. Everyone telling you the same thing, "hey, you'll be alright." You had gone to bed depressed, dreading another lonely night. You had to look at your child and wipe away their tear. Cause they haven't seen their daddy in almost a year. The last time you felt you had to stand tall and strong. When everything in your life seems to be going wrong. The last holiday you had to spend without your spouse. Cause for months, it's only been you and the kids at the house. The last time you looked at his picture... breaking down and crying. You wrapped yourself in a ball cause the pain is to much, you feel like your dieing. The last time you cleaned house and found something you thought was lost of his. Tightening your grip on it, holding it close to your chest, closing your eye's and making a wish. The last time you turned the t.v on and it was playing his favorite show. Or cranked the radio up when you hear his favorite song and the radios on to low. The last time you wore his old t-shirt around all day long. Singing at the top of your lungs with that old country song. Well, I can tell you exactly when the last time it was for me. I've done all these today and it's only just now 5 minutes till three.