When I Left You

I left you standing in the woods, because my conscience said it was for your very own good. My lifeless heart tears when I see that look in your eyes, the look of sadness which I strongly despise. Lying on the ground your staring at me in shock, so hurt you can't even walk. But I know this is all for the best, to let you live life like all the rest. You are my angel, the light of my life, to leave you like this cuts like a knife. I want to run back and hold you so tight, never letting you out of my sight. I'll miss your blushing cheeks and y our beating heart, and it will make the dead one in me tear apart. You are my drug, my life, and my soul mate, to change you would fill me with personal hate. Running away, I left my soul, without you I will never be whole. I love you so much and that’s what gives me t he strength to let you go, I'm hurting inside, but I don't let it show. You deserve someone better, someone who isn't a monster like me, someone who won't make you live life for eternity. I am running far away, begging you to stay. My conscience is slowly pulling me back, I tell you to be happy and you can love black. Rose said you jumped from a cliff, and running through my mind are a million "what ifs". You have lost your life because of me. I cannot live without you so I run to the Volturi I demand them to kill me but they will not fulfill, so I run to the village and sparkle in the sun rays, I have nothing more to say. they have no choice but to let me die, for life is over in my eyes. Without you I am lost, I will join you at any cost. I’m almost there I’m almost free, away from living eternity. Then I hear a scream and a cry, they turn into sobs and I don't know why. Slowly I turn around, and the owner to the sweet voice is no where to be found. Then I feel the faintest grip, someone running and then they trip. I look down, and all I see is a frown. I see your eyes swimming with tears, and in them are a million fears. I hold you tight against my chest, having you near is finally a rest. How could I be so stupid and believe such a lie, I would never want you to die. I have no choice but to believe that its true, that this person in my arms is really you. Why did I not just listen to my heart, why did I think it would be better from the start. All I wanted was to protect but what I did was even worse then I would expect. I will promise you I will leave you never, and also that I will love you forever