When I Find You.

I have searched for you in the heart of the darkened forest, my cold breath silvered in the 
splintered moonlight. You were not there.

I have looked for you in the garden of my sorrows, where only the weeds of disenchantment 
flourish. You were not there.

I have walked through darkened corridors at midnight, wandered barefoot through rooms 
empty, even of ghosts, where my wedding dress hangs decaying in cobwebs, lit only by the 
sighing moon.

I have a nature made sweet by fragility, a life made empty through timidity. 
But I will search until I find.

I have searched for you in my dreams through landscapes made grey by disappointment and 
regret. Where are you?

And when I find you I shall come to you not just with my brain and my mind and 
my beating heart, but with all of me, all that I am.

And when I turn to you and you enclose me in your arms, sealing off the world, you will know 
by my weeping that I am Home.

And all the griefs of my life will fall from me as I slide the knife deep into your heart and 
watch you bleed.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Agustin Avatar
November 9, 2025 at 9:56 PM
Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Meanwhile, I greet you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.
A  Avatar
January 30, 2016 at 7:20 PM
Susan, A great pleasure to find and read your pen today. Love -- SKAT --
Bathsheba Avatar
March 23, 2010 at 12:46 PM
Susan this is a utterly wonderful write - You had me going - lol - A trully fabulous dark write that was executed to perfection - Thanks for sharing -:)
Brown Avatar
March 22, 2010 at 12:21 PM
I am enjoying reading fresh poetry today. What a wonderful thing to do on this rainy day. I am so happy your poetry was among what I have read and enjoyed today Susan. Love, Carol
R Avatar
March 22, 2010 at 8:05 AM
dont worry you will find him someday...dont fret its worth the while...amanda
Hallett Avatar
March 22, 2010 at 8:05 AM
I like this poem. Good job. Keep writing!!! Can't wait to read more and welcome to poetry soup!!! -Courtney-
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