When Death Comes Unexpectedly

You had two months to live No one told you, no one warned you No one knew I can’t look you in the eyes I tried, a thousand times But what once felt safe seemed savage What once was certain proved damaged The wreckage was drastic Do I blame myself? Or do I blame you? You had two days to live No one told you, no one warned you No one knew The one thing I wanted Was to tell you what I wanted - The truth To look you in the eyes And say those haunting 3 words - I never did You had two minutes to live No one told me, no one warned me I didn’t know But you knew You knew What you were thinking What you were wanting What you were longing for Is what I long to know But I don’t know I may never know Truth is I still feel afraid of what was left before you parted Ashamed of what has never mended Scared of second chances A chance I should be dying to take But what if I still can’t look you in the eye? What kind of a person would that make me? I’m afraid to know Meanwhile healing comes so slowly And not from a lack of trying Believe me, I try Just wish it didn’t need to take you dying for me to figure that out But now I know Now I know