What Ect Did For Me
I WAS CIRCUMED TO THIS TREATMENT 7 TIMES TO BE EXACT
YOU ARE RIGHT WHEN STATING THE INSUATING FACT
THEY RUIN YOUR TODAY PROMISING BETTER TOMORROW
STILL CONTINUING TO BE STUCK IN MY BIPLOAR SORROW
EXCEPT THE NEW MEMORY LOSS I ENCOUNTER ON A DAILY BASIS
I GUESS SANITY DOESNT INCLUDE A SUSTAINABLE HOMEOSTASIS
I WAS TOLD I BECAME VIOLENT AFTER TREATMENTS THEY PROVIDED
I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO NOTICED THE ANTI SEIZURAL MEDICATION THAT WAS STILL BEING PROVIDED
HARD TO INDUCE A SEIZURE WHEN MEDICATED TO DO THE OPPOSITE
DOCTOR SAYS TO ME DIRECTLY HE CRANKED THE KNOB TO A POINT HE WASNT COMFORTABLE WITH
SO I SUFFERED HIGHER VOLTAGE SO THEY COULD GIVE ME THEIR CURE
AGAIN I FORGET EVERYTHING AND I STILL FEEL INSECURE
MEMORY LOSS IS THE LEAST OF MY STORIES TO BE TOLD OF ECT
THEY DIDNT CURE ANYTHING THEY SIMPLY ELECTROCUTED ME
I SUFFERED ALL OF THESE TREATMENTS JUST TO RETURN TO A EMPTY HOME
CONTINUING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS THEY LEFT IN MY MIND TO ROAM
SOMEDAY I HOPE TO BE REMEMBERED BECAUSE LIFE HAS ONLY SHOWN ME OVERLOOKED
GUESS I WAS THE ONLY ONE READING THE LIST OF MEDICATIONS IN MY FILE BEFORE THE TEATMENTS WERE BOOKED
THEY SEDATE YOU AND YOU AWAKE TO STUDENTS WATCHING YOU CONVULSE
INSTEAD OF THE MEMORIES I HAVE WISH THEY ERASED MY PULSE
I NOW SURVIVED ANOTHER TRAGIC LIFE EXPERIENCE THAT FUELS MY BIPOLAR RACING MIND
SUICIDE NEVER SEEMED SO DESIRABLE... FUNNY IN THE RESEARCH THAT FACT I DIDNT FIND
SO STUCK HERE DREAMING OF THE BULLET THAT FINALLY ERASES MY PAIN
STILL UNDER THE CLOUD OF ELECTRO CONVULSIVE THERAPY INDUCED RAIN
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