Villanelle No 1

Though looking back I wish I'd called a Doc The optimist in me hoped you'd get well Your death to me came somewhat as a shock For I was sure I'd emptied out the Glock I should have checked the chamber for a shell but looking back I could have called a Doc I still remember thinking "What the flock?" And quizzically your face said "What the hell?" Your death to us came somewhat as a shock But once it fired your life was on the clock And urgent care was needed, I could tell so looking back I should have called a Doc While these events have cured my writer's block There's little else to do here in my cell I've come to see your death came as a shock With all this time to think I've taken stock and weapons tips from those in here a spell Though looking back I wish I'd called a Doc Your death to me came somewhat as a shock