Unknown Thoughts

So much goes through my mind From death, love to hate and pain. Not sure if it's all about me Or if it's just simply the way i see it I can't help but think of the past. All the heartbreaks, all the family issues That I’ve had in the past. I don't know what to do or how to act With my Father never there and stuck with mom Always disappointing the family with all of my problems Having disabilities that interfere with my life Been going to therapy since I was three Now I’m older, and yet still have problems I have a dad that's always there and doesn't act like a jackass My life doesn't seem as hard Though it is, and now I’m in high school The hard times have just begun Yet from all the hard things I’ve faced in life They only make me stronger No pain ever hurts me for I’ve felt it all From feeling worthless and good for nothing To being heartbroken and out of place Lost and unforgiving To hate and love And pain and pleasure I felt it all But what now?