True Pain

If you could only see the feelings shooting through me. You'd then maybe get a glimpse of the pain you have made me feel. I want so badly to have you back in my life dad, but by the horrifying struggles you put me through, I just can't seem to forget the way you made me feel. I wish you could feel at least a pinch of my pain, maybe then you would truly stay for good... But I don't want you here..you hurt me, a lot. I needed you, and you weren't there for me. How can I ever trust you with my life again? If you screwed it up once, whose to say that you won't revert to your old ways and screw me up again? If you could only feel the pain throbbing through my body, heart, mind and soul....