Trans In Reverse
Trans In Reverse
By Lola
Im ill today cause the sky is gray
A strange sort of comfort in the mood of the day
I hide in the darkness between rays of sunlight
I dont have a fever, but i feel sick every night
I cant leave the bed, because the feedback’s too loud
The noise holds me down and welcomes in the crowd
I breathe in the fumes of a dying man outside
Killing myself slowly when I’m out of space to hide
I don’t look like the other girls I know and always see
There doesn’t seem to be a place for me inside those dreams
And when I show my trans face to unconditional love
I end up in the cold cause family will never be enough
My mind unravels slowly; the sun will never rise
I lose myself in her and drown my best disguise
Drifting through the void of me in wake of everything I see
The sideways stares; the fear they show....it’s really ME I’ll never be
A menace of the fringe; eyes alive with despair and rage
Tattoo my hands and face to scare the masses from a cage
My bones and skin begin to change; I die a little every day
Baby trans in Purgatory to tell the truth that I am gay
I see a woman that smiles at me with a defiant Cheshire slope
I have the power that I seek to make the world alive with hope
My breasts, my lips, the way my hips begin to swing
Surreal as life are diamond rings; the weight is held in little things
Copyright © Laura Dee | Year Posted 2019
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