Tough thoughts

I watch as time goes by, With no great urge to try, To make a move, Or break a sweat, I'm a lost heart broken guy. "HOW" I wonder why, A sudden urge to cry, I see her image, I loose a breath, I'm a lost heart broken guy. When will it feel so much better, To smile like when I first met her, Good times and bad, A mixed bunch that we had, I would sooner be writing a love letter. Memories I want to remember, God's prayer I like to send her, All is not good, A mass change in mood, The cancer is one big contender. I can't imagine my future, A one I live without torture, No one for a cuddle, No one for a date, I've lost my true love, My only soul mate.