Torn and Distant
Why?
Why do I feel so gone?
I'm now so distant I just don't belong
Now I'm ripped away from existence
I've become so transparent, I've lost all substance.
Sitting nowhere, breathing fake air.
I don't feel anymore, so I can't care
It's about time I clear my throat
And let out the hellish screams till I float
I'd run a million from here
Just to get out of this cage and escape fear
You know you're screwed up when you crave pain
You wanna bleed all throughout your brain
The blood in my veins is proof of life
I'm not sure if it's there, so I reveal it with a knife
Not me anymore, don't know myself
Prisoner in my own skin, I no longer comprehend health.
It's all in the family
So it must be okay
It's all in the family
Daddy used to say.
He hurt me, he raped me
He slashed me, he tore me
He killed me, He tortured me,
He loved my terror.
I am my own army
So let's retaliate
Fight, Destroy
Let me show him real hate
Look at the fire in my eyes
That roaring beast that will never hide
I've lost all that I had,
Blood seeps through my skin because it hurts so bad
My shattered heart pounds against my breast,
Scattered pieces cutting holes in my chest.
Slowly I fade as I quickly drown.
Covered in guilt, sequestered by sounds.
Tilting off the edge,
About to fall off,
My mind's so lacerated
It's become leathery and soft.
Copyright © Heaven Lorenz | Year Posted 2012
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