To Heal Is Not Mine

To heal is not mine....
With the words;
"In time you will heal",
many try to console me.
Though said with all good intent,
there is no consolation;
only hurt and anger I feel.
For those words translate to me;
that there should be a limit
to my grief and that in time...
I should be okay with my loss.
To heal is to.....
cure, make well, restore;
those words.... those utterances
have no relevancy to my loss.
So to heal is not mine.

Oh...but there is a promise
that the future holds I'm told,
hence; in all desperation and
with all might I grasp hold;
just as a frightened child clutches
the strong and secure hand
of her towering father.
The promise of a perfect and
everlasting healing...when life 
to many sleeping in death
will surely be restored.
So alas until then....
To heal is not mine.

By; Joan Marie Peranteau (mommy)
Dedicated to and written in regards to my son
Nathaniel Blaine Gibson.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Newan Avatar
December 23, 2014 at 5:49 PM
I LOVED THIS
Vaso Avatar
July 15, 2014 at 5:38 PM
I know i it may seem meaningless, but I feel your pain, Richard said what I feel so eloquently, No words can heal, so as I could say so much more I will simply offer you a hug.
Peranteau Avatar
August 8, 2014 at 9:08 AM
Thank you Arthur...
Lamoureux Avatar
July 12, 2014 at 9:41 AM
During grief a listening and compassionate ear offers the most healing. The hard part about such a profound loss is that people don't know how to react and as a result the person in the midst of the loss feels even more isolated. I hope you are surrounded by listening compassionate friends.
Peranteau Avatar
August 8, 2014 at 9:15 AM
So true Richard... I know all mean well and everything is said with good intent, however; until one has a loss such as mine, and I know a few, they won't understand how the words "In time you will heal" will register in their mind. I won't heal, I just have to learn to live with this horrific wound, devastating blow. Only healing will come when God's Promise is fulfilled.
Ayala Avatar
July 9, 2014 at 12:56 AM
Hi JoanMarie, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. This is a very beautiful, sad write. Please take care of yourself. Kika
Peranteau Avatar
July 11, 2014 at 12:47 AM
Thank you...
Sietesantos Avatar
July 9, 2014 at 12:38 AM
Hi JoanMarie, this is such a beautiful but heart-wrenching write about the loss of your precious child. As a mother I can feel your pain and ask you to please accept my sincere condolences. My thoughts and prayers go out to you in your grief. Best wishes.
Peranteau Avatar
July 11, 2014 at 12:49 AM
Thank you...
Gregory Avatar
July 5, 2014 at 12:19 PM
very emotional piece which send a reassuring message that we are able to.. not withstanding....i like the line "that there would be a limit to my grief in time" very good write Mommy
Peranteau Avatar
July 11, 2014 at 12:48 AM
Thank you...
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