Throw These Dices

When will it be my turn? When will I cast these dice, to get what I want, and not lose. Lose my mind Lose my life, Lose my friends, Lost I've Found. Oh I wish I could, do what I want to. Oh I wish I could, be what I want to. I try so hard, yet get nowhere. I try my best, I fall down. I fall down, and I don't want to get up. Something moves me, to get back up. Oh I want someone. Someone to hold. To be with, and to live with. But I know I can't. I do my best not to. But when the time comes, I will throw these dice. Hopefully I will win.