This Pain

figuring out what i already knew,
living in solace with very little to do-
allowing this pain to walk all over me,
making my eyes too blind to see…
this isn’t friction, 
it’s addiction,
and i can’t break free

embraced by an illness that has taken hold,
too small to see i’m just too damn old-
forgetting this pain can walk all over me-
never seeing what will be, will be-
this isn’t vanity,
it’s insanity,
and i can’t break free

acceptance of what will come is the worst,
letting go of what i think has come first-
what will i find
in my poor mind?
continuing to let this pain walk all over me-
this isn’t real,
what i feel,
and for some reason, i just can’t break free

i’ve lost what i found in the beginning of time, 
        now i’m bound by sound spinning in rhyme

o, when will i break free?
   from this pain that has taken hold of me

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1/19/2022

I am having a spinal fusion on February 3rd and am in a lot of physical pain. I am also a recovering addict and pain relief options have been very difficult for me. Please keep me in your prayers. 

Many thanks :)
-luloo
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Date: 1/22/2022 3:19:00 AM
This poem is so appealing to me in many ways, Luloo, praying for you and the spinal fusion you have to undergo...keep believing, our Lord will see you through:)
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Date: 2/9/2022 9:09:00 AM
somehow he did- thank you dear friend :)-luloo
Date: 1/19/2022 10:47:00 AM
I'm sorry to hear that you're not well Lu Loo, I hope everything goes well with your spinal fusion, will keep you in my prayers. Tom
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Date: 2/9/2022 9:08:00 AM
thank you dear Tom, I appreciate it :) -luloo
Date: 1/19/2022 9:45:00 AM
Dear Lu, saying a prayer for you, you speak for so many, was just thinking how often elders are forgotten. God bless, DMB
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Date: 2/9/2022 9:08:00 AM
thank you very much DM, ou are sweet :) -luloo
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