The Way Life Is Suppose To Be?

Is this the way my life is suppose to be I am I suppose to sit and reminise on him why when I remember him all I can do is smile when I see him, my lips want to go to his Why after months am still willing to say he's mine when people ask who's your boy I want to mention his name Is this the way my life is suppose to be Why when something goes good someone has to put bad why when i do something right they find away to make it wrong am I suppose to feel alone and unwanted am I suppose to sit on the sidelines and smile Is this the way life is suppose to be When when somethings wrong I think it's something with me When they dont talk to me why do I smile and walk away How come I can't have a best friend who I spend everyday wit one who listen and things to do Is this the way my life is suppose to be Why can't I have control of my life why does my dad hang over my hear that I'm not his why when my grades are great something comes along to make them slip Why do I have to cover a weak personality with a hard image why when I've found Jesus I Can't pray