The Struggle

For a moment I close my eyes Listening to my bleeding heart that cries My impulsive thoughts roll like thunder I stand in awe and constantly wonder Will I die sober and clean Or is this life an unexpected dream Wishing this roller coaster would come to an end Is God my only friend I hear the rain beating on the tin Calming me also is the whispering wind My mind is raging like the unrelentless tides Feeling everyone's toxic vibes I hope and pray for instant relief But the clock ticks sluggishly in unbelief The golden rays are peering through the clouds With a hand reaching to me covered in a shroud The voice inside me pleads for a chance Celestial angels presenting a spiritual dance A spark of hope twinkles in my eye Just for today, I will not die