The Spotlight

All eyes always on you, I stand outside your spotlight. The fights end only when I drop my soul and give you the white flag, It’s always my fault, somehow, I’m the one to blame for your mistakes. My guard is always up, never trying to start a war. I gave up on trying to share your light, go ahead keep it; I don’t want. Excuses, I always have to make. The battle is all in your head. A dance for me to shine, no way; in the corner stupidly, I wait. Life passes you thru the lens it's so fake. The fool waiting for her dance, the guests laugh away. The secrets that make you doubt, the lies that you believe. I have learned to hate the light, to live on the side, walk in your shadow. I still stand on the side, wake you as you call out the demons of your past. My fingers have a voice one you will never truly hear, twisted are my words. You will one see my mistake, this is my betrayal, as you cry “un poor me.” Your ears are deaf, your mind is so blind your eyes no longer see. Your way will one day push everyone away. The spotlight is yours for the take; this battle is yours Never was it your fault, I will always take the blame. Don’t worry they won’t know my pain, I can fake a smile, learned it the hard way. “baby I got this” inside I break, the lies I tell to protect you. What in the light once, for the fool who never dances. The shame, the moment was perfect everyone, but you noticed, O the one sitting to one side never to dance in the light.