The Real Me
This is my real story,
and how it truly goes,
not many know the real me,
but only what my mask shows.
I learned to wear many masks,
to hide the pain within,
in fear people would use my weaknesses,
to cause pain again.
My first boyfriend beat me,
cheated and lied,
so I wore the mask of bravery,
in attempt to try and hide.
My second boyfriend used my daughter against me,
I could never do anything right,
so I wore the mask with a smile,
so she would think everything was alright.
My third boyfriend got addicted to pain meds,
even sold them at one time,
Id thrown on another mask,
to pretend I had a perfect life.
two kids by different dads,
oh no secrets out,
I no longer want to hide,
this is what I'm about.
I found out the man I called grandpa,
use to beat his wife,
I'm ashamed to be related,
or that he was in my life.
I grew up with no money,
and a mom I couldn't stand,
struggling to find the real me,
with all the masks I had.
My life has been far from perfect,
definitely no fairy tail ,
but I no longer want to pretend,
even if it means I fail.
So my mask is off,
this is the real me,
I can be jealous, insecure,
and suffer from some anxiety.
My anxiety is a little different ,
symptoms can't be seen by the naked eye,
it's that kind of anxiety,
where you slowly die inside.
nearly 3,000 friends on Facebook,
and compliments as far as I can see,
but how many can honestly say.....
they know the real me?
Copyright © Brittany Cuneo | Year Posted 2016
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