The Nothingness

The Nothingness began as a small, black smear across my smile. It wormed and gnawed its way past my unsuspecting defenses, Until it settled finally in the center of my heart, Numbing my smile and deadening all my senses. Once its icy grip had completely encircled my heart I believed it would take one stronger than I to pry it apart. Where does my champion stand; he who will fight for me? Will one come forward now and set my wounded spirit free? I sat alone in the darkness, listening in the silence, waiting for a sign, A brief repast, a hopeful glance, or perhaps a warm embrace. From deep within, my warrior stirred and slowly began to chant. I felt my strength begin to rise and my sad heart quickened its pace. “This is a lie! I am not powerless in my own life!” Darkness seeps in when focus is not set on life affirming themes. This did not happen TO me. I allowed it to grow and spread. I will not succumb to the Nothingness. My soul will be redeemed. One step at a time, one powerful action after another, I take back my power to own my emotions and thoughts, I will overcome this relentless hopelessness and depression By remembering who I am, I CAN control what is my own fault. Underneath the Nothingness is a strong desire to die. Choosing to live begins with a decision. Where will my focus lie? Looking away from the Nothingness drains it of its power. Drawing from my own strength and determination, I decide to try. Chula Fleming © August 15, 2024