The Lie

and when i die inside this lie pretended happiness let it be known that seeds were sown from lonely emptiness were i be clear 'twas not from fear nor suicidal choice but ways are known by those alone unspoken yet with voice for grief doest tempt since first i wept no longer found on earth i make my stand with empty hands to judge my own life's worth a soul so lost who knows the cost and pray He shall forgive since she's been gone i wake each dawn no will or want to live