The Hardest Part

Drifting through these memories,
it is torture, running through these veins.

Not such a distant past,
or so it seems,
I should have known, it wouldn't last.

Bittersweet feelings when I remember this.
Tears won't do justice,
pain is more than this,
but never quite satisfying.

Trying so hard,
but never good enough.

Forever young, but youth forever misplaced.
Not lost, though exhausted.

Kissing such a commodity goodbye,
a surprised discontent.

Difficulty breathing at times,
stop to catch my breath,
I am short of it.

Spinning so uncontrollable.
Consistent, it does not cease.

Deliberation of internal monologue,
who knew it would be resistant, my mind,
in liberation.

Release of adrenaline,
persistent manipulation of guilt.

Blame, a hidden secret,
bouncing from one host to the next.

It is somewhat like a disease,
partially contagious.

Free emotion consumes mind and body.
Senses of flexibility prevails.

I am fee.

Please, don't let me slip away.
Forever be.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Rhinem Avatar
July 29, 2010 at 12:10 AM
Smile ~ I do not believe that the ones whom truly love You shall ever let Your Precious heart slip away from they ~ Its all about faith trust patience perseverence and time; and all good things come to them whom rise above, the doubts of darkness instilled; be it through life seen or unseen....Smile, always remember, "'You Are Loved' ~ John 3:16 ~ 'Precious Candice'" ~ "Much Warmth & Love to You & Yours, Always," John!:) ~
Mehta Avatar
April 13, 2010 at 10:10 PM
I enjoyed the poem. A wonderful write
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