The Fool On the Hill

Standing on the sloping lawn by the lake
     in the pouring rain
       hoping this ritual will ease my spiritual pain, 
                (dreams slain, memories profane)                                         
arms wide
                (as if crucified)
palms up, head tilted back, holding perfectly still,
                (like The Fool on the Hill)
now this song is running through my head,
                (hard to believe all but one of them are dead)
understanding the lyrics now, finally, in my old age,
                (having overcome the youthful rage)
more things making sense,
                (like that there's no such thing as coincidence,)
I can make my body be still but my mind races on,
     an unspoken marathon,
wishing I could achieve Zen,
     remembering when
         I was a kid watching Kung Fu,
            the serenity he knew,
my mind now leaping to the Carradine clan,
   Hollywood's one-time leading man,
      the patriarch John 
         and how my father's older brother
             was a good friend of his,
                   (a familial brush with show biz)
the rain is letting up
                   (wishing my brain would shut up,)
soaking wet, hair plastered, peace unmastered,
            life is overwhelming, an endless disaster,
my mother's face in her coffin:
            cold and white and hard as alabaster,
and you wonder why I sleep so much (!?)
            why I'm so out of touch (!?)

It's so my brain will BE QUIET
            to quell the INNER RIOT...

The doctor gave me Xanax
            I think I'll try it.


©Danielle White
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009


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Date: 7/22/2009 7:51:00 AM
Amazing skill with the writing of this one, Danielle! So much memory, angst, information, wrapped up with a passionate anxiety. Wow....!!!
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Date: 7/21/2009 7:17:00 PM
Wow! What a powerul write, Danielle! Trying to quiet "the inner riot" can be very difficult. You have such vivid imagery in this poem and I could hear the song playing in the background as I read it. Brilliant work! Love, Carolyn
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