The Downward Spiral

She with the deadly bite Whispers innocently into my ear Gives me all a man could want Ensures that she's always near When or if I need her I used to look to the past for solace Or the future to cheer me up But laying here, unable to find the light Feels like it could end so abrupt In the darkness She holds me close and rains her love upon me I smile to keep her happy and sane But inside I'm waiting til she's sleeping To walk out in the rain And shed my shell Some do this to cover their tears I do it to sober my drunken mind That such life-giving drops would course down my skin Wake me and free me from the binds That are dragging me down this downward spiral But it doesn't rain forever Soon the drops abate and the air is dry I hear her whispering, calling my name And I trudge back, wondering why I don't just hit the bottom