The Devil and Me 5 Years On

I look at those four poems and i'm reminded of harder times, struggling to break free, to regain my mind. Each poem was at a different time, throughout my withdrawals, I wanted to open peoples eyes, to show you what your in for. For anxiety they were intended, but had a multi purpose, they suppressed my anger for a while, then things only got worse. In between scripts is where things got bad, not having enough money for them, made me intensely mad. Then I just decided one day, to heck with it all, I just stopped taking them, and wouldn't buy anymore. I don't recommend this, this is not what I'm trying to endorse, there are people out there that do need them, I just didn't want them anymore. I hated what they were doing to me, whenever I ran out, So I bit the bullet, and roughed it all out. I still have anxiety, panic attacks as well, Only difference is, I know what to do when I have a spell. If I had known now what I didn't then, I would never have started taking them. To many times in life, people want a quite fix, Take a pill, that's alright, it will fix you quick. Putting a band aide over an infection, doesn't take the infection away. Only when you get to the root of the cause, Can you bring about brighter days. In a sense I guess, I wanted people to see what they do, before taking anti depressants, think the whole thing through. They are addictive and yes sometimes they help, for a little while, then doctors will push you on the harder ones, then you'll be hooked for life. There are other ways to deal with life's misery's, like holistic healing or counselling, or learning coping strategy's. M.Mahauariki © 2012