The Attempt To Put Aside Pity

My anticipations of the sorrows, of never-ending afflictions, don't seem quite unnatural and silly... there are alike the visible frustration, which controls your uncertain devotion... like the attempt to put aside pity, but it's revealing the darkest secret you kept hidden inside for fearing truth! Somehow,it's a lot different... and my unexpressed emotions do resent; every gracious beauty which appeared in those confident looks appeased my unexplainable passions of virility; had I chosen to ignore reality? Even your understanding assured me of your sincerity, and most likely tomorrow, you will react madly to the absence of sweetness... without putting aside your pity; but the deprivation and resentment you caused me,intentionally, can take years to forget or even more... unless my arrogance turns into forgiveness! This unforgettable hug, if only lasted like an eternal song, awakes an acute heartcry which will know no silence; and the only feelings of guilt are the vanishing hopes within it... and like the attempt to put aside pity, your refusal to reconciliation and awareness can hurt me and change me completely!