The Apology

The Apology And yes Joan, was there a time I said there could be a tomorrow? And when did I say our love would last forever? Want the moon? It’s yours! The sun? You can have it! Only that I would be a joker fulfilling a role that doesn’t suit me; I am what I am. Loving life is wonderful. Please don’t look at me as if I were some cruel beast; Scheming and stalking prey for the feast. We never seem to agree; our wants and needs are different. For what it’s worth, I’m sorry if I misled you into believing We were sharing. I wasn’t taking advantage of the situation. I am caring, but I was naïve and too immature to take that leap. I couldn’t feel your feelings. Your look was casual; Without expression, and now I see the hurt in your eyes. No wonder you despise me: the loathing, the hate, And I am ashamed for being so mean And treating you carelessly; without remorse. There were memories, Joan, intimate, and personal. That I will cherish, and I did make you smile. And now, after all, is said and done, the distance grown; I apologize.