Taking Sundays Back

I pray to thee Lord from the depths of my agnosticism,
from within the fiery flames of belief  that circle my pyre 
and reach for me, then retreat, leaving smoking tinder.

Bibles mock me from hotel drawers; 
Mass schedules reproach me at church doors.
Friends who are “saved” hope to save me as well.
They can't understand that agnosticism is as 
immovable in me as their faith is in them.

But how did this come to be?
Sixteen years of Catholic school could not 
save me from it; an Irish mother couldn't save me.
And it took courage the first time mortal sin held me 
in its grasp on the day I deliberately took Sundays 
back for myself. 

I miss you, Lord, so I pray to thee, from the depths of my 
agnosticism that you hear my agnostics prayer.

(If you're there.)
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Smith Avatar
August 5, 2015 at 7:23 PM
Sometimes it is better to live the word of the Lord than actually going to Mass. Beautifully written....Tim
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August 7, 2015 at 4:54 PM
Thanks, Tim. I still love and respect the Catholic Church I grew up with and its ancient history. My problem is still God, but I'm working on it.
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