Sweet Baby Boy

My sweet baby boy, You’re no where in sight How my heart aches to hold you, Kiss you good night Tell you bedtime stories Plug in a night light It’s not fair So very unfair How I lost you I let you down Please remember mommy loves you Hates herself Can’t stand the truth Mommy doesn’t have you Doesn’t even know you Need to find a way Back to you Rage my son My little baby boy My head held low Ashamed of what ~ I’ve done It’s your birthday 2 years today April 23rd the day you were born Held you in my arms Only to let you go I can’t stand it Look myself in the mirror Tears won’t stop Falling from my eyes Intense unhappiness Without you RAGE ~ my son Sweet baby boy