Surrenity

We never knew that death was so close. And when our grand daughter was dying, Before her passing we began to pray. Something erupted deep inside of me. I yelled loudly; I pleaded to God; I said, " Lord, please don't let her die! Can you do this for me?" I cried like a newborn baby. God heard me but he said, "No". When my oldest sister died I felt my breath being taken away And it seemed reality disappeared When my daughter's husband abused her A force of anger exploded in my soul, Igniting desires to do him bodily harm. Only God held me back from attacking him. When I lost a job in San Francisco I was at a loss and did not know what to do, Where to go, or who to call as eruptions of Fear boiled up inside of me. But for the grace Of God and his guiding light, a continual flow Of emotional lava would have overwhelmed me. When my grandmother passed away My dream of introducing her to my First born also died. Many are the eruptions of life, Causing disruptions in our lives. But we must remember that God's Grace is abundant, preventing total destruction to our lives.