Suicidal Thoughts

Suicidal thoughts often flashed across my mind.
I might have lived and died million times.
I searched for the way to reach suicidal point
Short cut, long cut any cut to reach.

But I couldn't get one
So I just postponed it for an hour.
My thoughts went on traveling too far
But it hanged between
If, that and this.
What will happen after this?

So I went on postponing
For days, months and years.
If I announce,
I will be self imprisoned
With charges of penalty and some punishment maybe,
For keeping such thoughts with me.
It's just illegal and burnt of shame just adds another one.

If I bring into action and I am dead
I will be just buried down dead with few tears shed.

If alive after all these stunts
A severe punishment on self
And I may come into the notice of many
Ashamed and chopped I will
Be whoever sees me!
It's as good as being buried alive.

For time being everything stands Postponed.

Though the topic is too harsh and rough,
Based on reality.
Such things happens when one looses control on self.
Be in a light mood while reading this poem
As you may also love
And I request you to postponed
If such thoughts you are keeping  in your mind.

Postpone it for sometime!
Just see you may find another way out
As some minute changes in our life
Can bring a lot of difference in our thoughts
I know its just easy to spell be positive
Just postpone it for time being for you aren't going to loose anything
As the life is too valuable and precious which can never be reverted back
Once dead.
Just wait and watch patiently.
Sure a sun will rise in your way as it did for me too.

©ALL RIGHTS RESERVED BY GEETHA JAYAKUMAR 2014

Geetha Jayakumar.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2015


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Date: 1/13/2015 8:19:00 AM
oh i know those thoughts geetha faith has kept me on the right path bless you heartfelt deep pen
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Geetha Jayakumar
Date: 1/20/2015 12:23:00 PM
Thanks a lot liam for the beautiful comment.
Date: 1/12/2015 2:40:00 PM
We all will find out what happens after death. No need to rush it and maybe miss out on the experiences that this life can teach us through joy and pain.
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Geetha Jayakumar
Date: 1/20/2015 12:22:00 PM
Thanks a lot Bill Yates for the lovely comment.
Date: 1/8/2015 12:21:00 PM
a heartbreaking write Geetha - my heart goes out to anyone with suicidal thoughts - can say no more makes me too emotional:-( Hugs jan xx
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