Suicidal Sorries

All I can do Is think of you At two in the morning While everyone is snoring So loud that no one can hear The demons that were drawing near The world fell silent You are now violent I want to run But my heart is numb I love you too much to let go But I'm forced to put on a show I fake a smile Because I love you If only you Could love me too The end draws near I'm no longer filled with fear This is my goodbye I'm sorry I couldn't satisfy Your needs They came first But I couldn't fulfill them So now I'm gun loading My body went cold I just wanted Someone to hold me But that was too much to ask for So I'm sorry.