Stronger Than 1,000 Suns

Am I doing this just to create drama
Or am I doing doing this to face the trauma
of years deep in the trenches of fears

not quite in space to deal with crazy
and my avoidance manifests as lazy
its like a nap after having seven beers

Something says that now is not the time
but something says putting this off is much more of a crime
Something says that this is more than just delusion
and something says great answers come from deep complex confusion

Am I a woman who hates numinous control
Am I this man that fronts as happy real and whole
Could it be that this is all a lie

not quite in a space to see a lady
and my man side is more than shady
Are my addictions just another alibi?

something says I'm stronger than 1,000 suns combined
but something says I can't touch my strength winding my mind
something says follow a lie if the intent is pure
something says the lie will lead you into something sure

OHHH, what a baited promise
OHHH, what a stolen soft kiss
OHHH, what an answer for bliss
OHHH, what a troubled bratty priss

Am I this woman waiting to emerge
Am I this soul waiting way too long to purge
a man holding onto what he knows

not quite in a space for difficult change
and my reality feels a little more than strange
should we wait to plant more seeds so that they grow?
Copyright © | Year Posted 2015

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