Stronger Than 1,000 Suns

Am I doing this just to create drama Or am I doing doing this to face the trauma of years deep in the trenches of fears not quite in space to deal with crazy and my avoidance manifests as lazy its like a nap after having seven beers Something says that now is not the time but something says putting this off is much more of a crime Something says that this is more than just delusion and something says great answers come from deep complex confusion Am I a woman who hates numinous control Am I this man that fronts as happy real and whole Could it be that this is all a lie not quite in a space to see a lady and my man side is more than shady Are my addictions just another alibi? something says I'm stronger than 1,000 suns combined but something says I can't touch my strength winding my mind something says follow a lie if the intent is pure something says the lie will lead you into something sure OHHH, what a baited promise OHHH, what a stolen soft kiss OHHH, what an answer for bliss OHHH, what a troubled bratty priss Am I this woman waiting to emerge Am I this soul waiting way too long to purge a man holding onto what he knows not quite in a space for difficult change and my reality feels a little more than strange should we wait to plant more seeds so that they grow?